i do have admirers .
quite a lot of them. 2 digit in numbers
too many comes , but yet too many being rejected by me
around 12 girls, i break their heart by saying 'NO, I'M NOT INTERESTED' .
sorry. so sorry.
but i don't wanna give you guys fake love.
it's okay if you guys hate me.
much better than love me.
sometimes i'm looking the answers for all this.
i'm always asking myself
"why do i can't accept all these girls?"
one reason, maybe i do not have any feelings towards them.
and other reason, maybe i do still,
having hope with my ex love.
i know, she wouldn''t come back to me.
she do have her own life that she chose to lead
but i don't know ,
why do i still keep reserving this empty space for her.
she's too hard to forget.
she's my personal tattoo.
she's my personal drugs.
i know, i looked stupid.
for having hopeless hope.
dear god , please ,
meet me with someone
who may wash off my mind from her
who may gives me strength
who may gives me courage
who may gives me peace
who may give me faith
who are willing to share almost anything with me
who care for me
who may gives me my true smiles and my laugh back
who are willing to be there for me when i need her
who may gives me the true love
...
as i get that , i will promise myself,
to be the same to her, like i said above.
to love her , fully heart.
open my heart
and
meet me my true love , god.
:i hope so:
howsweet;)
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